It will be almost two months since I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, and there are thoughts dwelling in my head that I’m not sure I have the energy to write in a proper, literary manner. So this is me attempting to empty those out to clear some space inside here.
Bullet points will be my friend in this blog post, so I apologize if you, reader, might find this low effort. Being swamped with working and studying drains one so much.
- I realize I am not bitter
- There exists a comfort like the one I felt with him and it happened to me
- I don’t think I’ll experience that exact same feeling again
- Different people = possibly different kinds of comfort
- I can really only thank him for letting me experience that
- I still worry about him; how he’s recovering from the loss he gained back when were still together
- I really hope he is growing
- I’m still not sure if I am fully healed
- but i’m sure as hell doing alright
- although i may have developed a weeeeeee bit of an alcohol problem
- I don’t think he’ll ever come back
- Or that if he asks, I’ll try again
- I just look forward, mostly, to regaining my hobbies and make it a regular thing
- Dating really is exhausting
- and I realize that with ex, it was more like getting to know a friend
- I miss him but I don’t want him back.
Guess that’s for now.
Ink-onstipated 